Random Talks

 I want you to be brutally honest with me. So will I be.  My name is Yatharth Jain, I am a computer Science student from sheridan college, Oakville. I just graduated in April 25th, still waiting for my official transcript. I started my Hons Bachelors in computer Science, specializing in Game Engineering in Janaury 2022. I came from a small town in India, here I moved in with my aunt and her family. I was not the same person I am right now. I took things too lightly. I started college in Jan, but came to Oakville in June. Because my visa got rejected, I got a low score in IELTS[not serious enough for anything], then I reapplied and got approved. In my semester I was learning python, I have already studied Java from 9th to 11th, but then I was preparing for JEE, did work hard for some time, but I did not qualify, which might be a setback why I stopped working hard enough since then. So first semester at sheridan college, there was a time gap I attended classes at 2am from India....

So really tired with the things going around, I am turning to my comfort movie. It has started to feel like I am only watching this now to not break the custom. Anyway, Got my pizza, Got my monster. Let's hop on another breakdown of YJHD. God if I was a movie reviewer I would be slammed so bad for only reviewing YJHD so so so many times......LOL I just noticed, it's so hard for me to focus on one thing at a time, constantly thinking about other things. Kabir thapar......Giggles obviously. The first half..... manali....is all the innocence I had as a youngster. Yarrrrr... I know Naina is going to realize this aage jaake, when Bunny tells her. But even at the first scene, where her mom mentions, "topper hai naina, medicine kar rahi hai". It has been presented to us in such a wrong way. I always thought being scholarly is bad, being naina is bad. This reminds me of a character breakdown video I saw of FRIENDS, where they did exact same thing with Ross. Ok so see this is ...

1. Chapter 1 - I am who I think you think I am.  - to simplify if I have an image that people consider me a topper, good student I will live upto that expectations, if nobody belives in me I will loose that too. 2. Chapter 1 - We are so full of people's opinions on us, that we are no longer able to see what our true values are. Like that mirror is our mind and dust is people's opinions or acquired fake values.  3. Where do values come from - they are inherent comes from teachings from parents at home, from school, where we were taught only good grades matter, not focusing on learning and acquiring true knowledge. 4. There are also fake values which comes from distractions, social media influences your thoughts. 5. First step to achieving monk mind is to start observing and evaluating, which begins with space and stillness, bore yourself out .  6. Our values are only the ones that we act on, if you value something and still end up not doing it then you need to reflect on i...

Every time I watch this movie, my perspective shifts and deepens. When I was younger, even just a year ago, I adored the first part of the film. The adventurous trip to Manali, the wild antics, and the exhilarating "Balam Pichkari" song gave me goosebumps—I still dream of celebrating Holi like that someday. However, now I find myself merely enduring that part. At 21, these are my days to embrace such craziness, and I fully intend to seize them. But as I've grown, I've realized the true essence of the movie emerges in the latter half, eight years into the story. Viewing Bunny and Avi from a neutral standpoint and relating to the friend who lives abroad and strives to mend friendships, I see their actions in a new light. They were both right in their ways. Bunny's realization of what he missed, especially when reminiscing about his father, is poignant. One scene that always strikes me is the kiss between Naina and Bunny. I feel it shouldn't have happened. Naina ...

 Have you ever sat on the floor with your legs folded. It’s a different feeling(puura system hil jaata hai yaar). Like this - So hello guys how are you guys doing , welcome to my another blog where we talk about random stuff going on in my life and in general(mostly my life). Well I was just doing my assignment and I took a break(obviously, can’t study for more than a minute, just kidding I can study for 10 hours straight, when there is a deadline only then, that’s a power which I think I have lost now! Sed life) so anyway, I randomly did it, sat on the floor with my legs folded and my legs started paining as soon as I started it, but kept it like that for some time(don’t know why), and after a few seconds or a 1 minute the pain went away, and I got that feeling(that system hil jaaana). That made me realize that this is how most things in life are maybe, pain to start but feels okayish in the middle and then towards the end it starts giving you pleasure, something which you h...

 So, just opened my laptop and thought I would write. But what? Have you ever been in the phase when you have so many thoughts but you don’t pen it down and later they are all gone and now you are empty. I am experiencing something like that right now! Few days ago like in the shower I was thinking how different Indian parenting is from here(if you don’t know I moved to Canada like a month ago ,after a year of planning). I was like Ah finally. Will talk about new experiences in the city in some other blog. But this blog will capture my emptiness(Big words huh!) Why am I even doing this? Have you heard some motivators/inspirators(I don’t even know if that’s a word) saying that you should write if you want to know yourself. I know motivation is like bullshit or cocaine( it charges you up for a while and then straight back to normal) but you know from a rather long time now, I have not been doing much stuff(like I don’t feel to do anything, don’t wanna study, don’t wanna grow in...