Random Talks

 I want you to be brutally honest with me. So will I be.  My name is Yatharth Jain, I am a computer Science student from sheridan college, Oakville. I just graduated in April 25th, still waiting for my official transcript. I started my Hons Bachelors in computer Science, specializing in Game Engineering in Janaury 2022. I came from a small town in India, here I moved in with my aunt and her family. I was not the same person I am right now. I took things too lightly. I started college in Jan, but came to Oakville in June. Because my visa got rejected, I got a low score in IELTS[not serious enough for anything], then I reapplied and got approved. In my semester I was learning python, I have already studied Java from 9th to 11th, but then I was preparing for JEE, did work hard for some time, but I did not qualify, which might be a setback why I stopped working hard enough since then. So first semester at sheridan college, there was a time gap I attended classes at 2am from India....

So really tired with the things going around, I am turning to my comfort movie. It has started to feel like I am only watching this now to not break the custom. Anyway, Got my pizza, Got my monster. Let's hop on another breakdown of YJHD. God if I was a movie reviewer I would be slammed so bad for only reviewing YJHD so so so many times......LOL I just noticed, it's so hard for me to focus on one thing at a time, constantly thinking about other things. Kabir thapar......Giggles obviously. The first half..... manali....is all the innocence I had as a youngster. Yarrrrr... I know Naina is going to realize this aage jaake, when Bunny tells her. But even at the first scene, where her mom mentions, "topper hai naina, medicine kar rahi hai". It has been presented to us in such a wrong way. I always thought being scholarly is bad, being naina is bad. This reminds me of a character breakdown video I saw of FRIENDS, where they did exact same thing with Ross. Ok so see this is ...

Hi past yatharth(sept27,2024), this is future yatharth. I am not the person you were expecting me to be and that’s fine. I really appreciate you having high hopes from your past self, but you should have known that god helps those who help themselves, so for the future me I am only hoping you stick to your principles and work as hard as you can, keeping your mental state in check. Even in the darkness, most ugliest and lonely nights and days.  Know that I believe in you always and maharaj ji does too :) I’ll just summarize what I said in 2024, what I am doing now and what I want to send to myself in September 2026.  I was focused on starting my YouTube channel back then and learn guitar, the reason I failed in both those aspects is because I didn’t had a clear concrete idea, didn’t even had a starting point from where I could deviate to places like I did with mindshiftzbio. For my future self. I hope everything you set your mind to, you create a concrete framework to back it u...

1. Chapter 1 - I am who I think you think I am.  - to simplify if I have an image that people consider me a topper, good student I will live upto that expectations, if nobody belives in me I will loose that too. 2. Chapter 1 - We are so full of people's opinions on us, that we are no longer able to see what our true values are. Like that mirror is our mind and dust is people's opinions or acquired fake values.  3. Where do values come from - they are inherent comes from teachings from parents at home, from school, where we were taught only good grades matter, not focusing on learning and acquiring true knowledge. 4. There are also fake values which comes from distractions, social media influences your thoughts. 5. First step to achieving monk mind is to start observing and evaluating, which begins with space and stillness, bore yourself out .  6. Our values are only the ones that we act on, if you value something and still end up not doing it then you need to reflect on i...

  You get to know yourself by revealing your most private fears, thoughts, and feelings. Look at your writing time as personal relaxation time. It's a time when you can de-stress and wind down. Write in a place that's relaxing and soothing, maybe with a cup of tea. Look forward to your journaling time. And know that you're doing something good for your mind and body. I am afraid of wasting time, that I am not using my day to the fullest. I avoid what I have to do! my assignments. I want to earn a lot of money travel the world. Make my parents proud.  I am at calm right now, in my isolation, I feel when I step out I will carry forward this energy into my day.  NO MASTURBATION, not avoiding it but trying not to do too much. INSTAGRAM DETOX. I don't know if I will be able to complete it or not. Have trust I will do it. I need to something to keep me busy all the time. Have a shower, trim, focus on communication skills and confidence, go to gym everyday. 

 Hi my name is Yatharth, didn't have to mention it coz I am the only one who is going to read it probably..... So nothing is going on really, monotonous life. I am too bored to do anything, but in reality I have so much to do and I will do it.(motivation hehehe) Uhm to a note to my future self: Don't worry there will be hard times much worse than now, rona bhi aa sakta hai, but don't loose hope coz you are strong if there is anyone who could win this situation is you and only you tabhi yeh problem aayi hai teri life me to make you stronger.  Agar ab tak tuune khud ke liye time nikal ke youtube channel start nahi kiya hai, ya guitar seekhna start nahi kiya hai to yeh tera reminder hai. Literally been another year, right now I am hoping to get a good job, working for good grades, want my parents to come visit here, they are not too sure whether I should stay here or not, but deep down you know the love hate relationship I have with Canada, which would always be there I guess....