This what I asked Gemini - My whole Journey in Canada

 I want you to be brutally honest with me. So will I be. 

My name is Yatharth Jain, I am a computer Science student from sheridan college, Oakville. I just graduated in April 25th, still waiting for my official transcript. I started my Hons Bachelors in computer Science, specializing in Game Engineering in Janaury 2022. I came from a small town in India, here I moved in with my aunt and her family. I was not the same person I am right now. I took things too lightly. I started college in Jan, but came to Oakville in June. Because my visa got rejected, I got a low score in IELTS[not serious enough for anything], then I reapplied and got approved. In my semester I was learning python, I have already studied Java from 9th to 11th, but then I was preparing for JEE, did work hard for some time, but I did not qualify, which might be a setback why I stopped working hard enough since then. So first semester at sheridan college, there was a time gap I attended classes at 2am from India. I was still learning, there was no AI, so I completed my projects on my own. For my midterm exam I got 30 minutes late to submit and the professor did not consider my submission. I failed the course because of that. 

Now for 2nd semester python was a prerequisite. I couldn't take the sem 2 programming course and the gap between me and other students who started at the time just kept increasing. Also for almost 2 years I was alone in my house, studying for JEE, did not attend in person tuition and in person 12th. So I had a hard time adjusting with people, didn't make much friends after sem 1. Next year sem 4 I left out of my aunt's house, found another place to live for 2 months, then moved again in 4 months, then stayed for a year and then the final house where I am currently living. In summer after 4th sem, I got chance to catch up with other students, took the remaining course in summer. But, along with 2 courses I was also working 2 jobs, 70, sometimes even 80 hours a week. I was never attending classes, thought I will pass using chatGPT and if I study the last day. But I failed one of the two courses, my friends who were in a similar problem[2 courses behind] both passed. Sem 5, while other students were completing there courses on time now and making friends, I was still failing[this time game specializing courses] I started hating it because of my professor Riaan for game, he failed me and a lot of students with hard assignments and less time to finish it, also the course graphics animation, game engine were hard. I had to complete all courses till 5th semester so I could apply for coop jobs[it was a requirement from sheridan], even after taking extra courses every semester from 4th. I had 1 course left from sem 5 which I failed. 

I asked my teacher was able to apply for coop, my friends in other specializations got an internship, even after applying rigourously I could not find an internship paid. My uncle got me 1 later. I didn't even work hard in my internship, almost got rejected as I missed an interview call [I was asleep]. Although the requirement from college to do a coop was completed[I got a certificate from company saying yes I did the hours]. Semester 7th. I was 1 course behind which I took at the time, my goal was to pass all courses in this semester and then pass the ones in next to graduate. But I failed 2 courses in sem 7, both with Riaan. I was partly responsible, I did not attend a few capstone meetings, I was getting 70% same grade as others before, so I was relaxed didn't do much. But just before the last meeting he asked what everyone did and changed my score to 20%, which made me fail. Sem 8, was the worst phase of my life, even after taking extra courses, having sleepless nights, dealing with depression, fatigue, anxiety. I had to study for 1 more year to graduate. Didn't even know what to do? How to tell my parents? 

I did do sem 8, completed all the courses I had to, was trying to fake everything is fine, but I was sad broken inside, and people could see that on my face even after hiding it. I was having fights with my roommate[my only real friend at the time], I was driving everyone away from me. 

In summer I had the chance to go back to my country. I did go back for 13 days in January 2024, but this time for 4 months. I was kinda guilty that I am not going back winning, I am going back coz I lost, also had some suicidal thoughts at the time. 

Those 4 months really changed me. The first month I was meeting my childhood friends, my parents after so long, my hometown. Everything I wished for during my bad times in Canada, I had it. But, I was still sad, I was putting myself to study, do something so I feel less guilty, had guilt in talking with my friends in Canada. Didn't even spend good time with my friends in India. Was having random outbursts on my family. Last 1 an a half month, my mom just told me to talk to our priest. Tell him about you, what you feel. I didn't really think something was going to change, but I thought let's give it a shot. That was the best thing ever happened to me. After the day I told him everything about me I went there constantly every day for the whole month or so. 

I probably couldn't explain what I felt, even now when I think about it, I feel what was so special. But I started healing. Something multiple calls with my mom couldn't fix, calls with my best friend couldn't fix. He did. 

I had a different energy, outlook for things. I started meeting my friends with a new energy. I was a new person. 

Anyway all good things end, I came back in September to complete my Bachelors course. 8 more months, 2 more semesters. But I was happy this time. I failed another one by Riaan graphics animation, because I absolutely hated to take that course and with him, But all my other courses,  I was actually attending classes, having discussions with people about it. My new capstone team was also good, I volunteered to things, became the SCRUM master, was giving inputs. 

Even though I failed this course, I still got a replacement for sem 8. Took the final 2 courses and passed them both. And I am finally done.

Now, what this tells about my persona? I took things too lightly. Every course I did, I found easier ways to do it, probably chatGPT, or copying someone's assignments, not putting my own input. So even though I passed all the courses I do not have much knowledge about anything. And now AI tools - cursor, antigravity, Claude. They generate all the code. 

My capstone for 7th and 8th sem, I heavily used cursor for vibe coding. Although I did look at the architecture then, trying to understand and then explain how the code works. But for the hackathon projects, I didn't even try to study how the code is actually working. Didn't even come up with idea of my own. 

So now, as I said be brutally honest with me. Do you think I can secure a job? How much time would it take me honestly. Don't sugarcoat it. What way should I change about myself, the way I study, or do things? What should I do now and how?